A Coffee and Some Adventure (?!) Friday
It’s only in the last week I feel like I’m getting my feet back under me after the last month or so. I started December with a cold/flu that wanted to linger. Then it was the holiday season and the wrap-up of a few things at work. And life, like the home office space I’m currently nestled in, has been in a state of shifting and rearranging so there is simply room to work. A proper go-through is needed so things can be tossed if need be, properly put away if they need to be kept. But I seem to not be allowing the time for such things. Like I said, I’ve been feeling a bit off-kilter for a while.
The beginning of a new year, a new start, a new project can feel daunting, no? While there is the fresh crispness of a new page, a clean slate, I can also find myself wondering, “How can this go wrong?” as in, “How may I possibly screw this up?” with the answers coming in bolded, underlined, and with every letter capitalized. And this year I’ve already found myself balking at the work needing to be done, finding ways to disqualify myself from the path(s) ahead, questioning for the eight thousandth time if I am in God’s will for XYZ. It’s as if I need to show God and myself how I cannot possibly do that because look at how shoddily I’ve done with managing this!
It can be a wearying cycle to get caught up in. But the plug was pulled on this particular swirl of chaos and confusion in a few moments taken this Wednesday past to, however briefly, be still. It was then when I read these not-unfamiliar words:
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track.” -Proverbs 3: 5, 6 (The Message)
I knew – I know – this is the answer needed. Things started to right themselves since then for one thing. And, yes, yes, there is work needing to be done. Changes to be made. Things need to be cleared out to make room for new things, to expand other things. And it is daunting, a little bit scary; it has uncertainties and unknowns. But keeping the above Scripture in mind means I don’t have to get sucked into a ‘doom spiral’ (as Jeff so aptly named them). No, I can take it a step, a breath, a moment at time because the One I follow is faithful and true.
Happy Friday, everyone – here is to being more adventurous even when the thought of what may lay ahead leaves us feeling a bit nauseous. Ha, ha … ha … (I’m right there with you, looking for the right focal point.)