A Coffee and Some Imperfections Friday
I sit here, wanting to be honest, wanting to not buff and polish things until they reflect the best possible light but unable to string together even a roughly cobbled thought. But it’s hard, y’all. Hard in that some things are not mine alone to share. Those stories are best written in late night whispers, the darkness offering some measure of security.
Some stories are too new, barely beginning. Wait – they’re not exactly new in the sense of, well, being new. But there’s a twist, a change to a set of circumstances which I’ve barely had time to begin sifting through. The proverbial dust still needs to settle. And one thing I’ve tried to not have this blog be is my personal journal. I like having a more private space to be unreasonable, to vent, to write and cross things out and the like.
So … yeah. Sometimes (often) it’s hard to write honestly, without looking for the best possible light and best filters and best placement of All the Things.
But my work schedule has changed. For the last five (or six?) years, I’ve worked mainly part-time at my office job. But as things have shifted and changed and (in many cases) been made smaller within the company I work for, there have been more full days than not. Not a bad thing, what with upcoming trips and home repairs and the like. I’ve really enjoyed my half days, though – getting to spend time doing whatever at home (not as many home projects got done as I could have completed), spending time with parents and sisters, having a bit of flexibility for scheduling things not all on the weekend, cleaning my house. But it was honestly with a sense of relief when I found out yesterday I’d be moving from (more or less) part-time to full-time hours. Now I know what my schedule will be week to week to week. None of this “playing it by ear”, wondering when I’d have time to do this and that. Now I know for sure what I have to work with. So there’s that.
But it’s getting later in the morning here (I was home later last night, and not at all wanting to sit down in front of a computer before bed), and as such I need to get ready for the day. Coffee, a spot of reading, and in the background figuring out how to make things like more writing and home organizing and relationship building work with returning to a full time schedule.
Have a happy Friday, everyone.