A Coffee and Some Wrestling Friday
“The secret of change is to focus all of your energy not on fighting the old, but on building the new.” ~Socrates
The previous two days in particular, a certain tension has been thrumming under my skin, through my mind. Everything had the potential to frustrate, to annoy, to create room for offense (taken and, possibly, given). It has left me cranky, ready to lash out, looking to eat my way through it if that’s what it took. And I couldn’t sort out the “Why?” behind it.
Not that I have it all sorted out quite yet. I realized only yesterday afternoon while waiting for an afternoon cup of coffee part of the problem was I hadn’t much in terms of alone time – a necessary thing for us introverted types – as of late. It was partly due to a busyness I did not mind at all over the last bit, and partly due to the that tension that never quite let my mind settle. I know I need to sit down, to sort through some things … And at the same time I’m wanting to avoid it like crazy.
I know in part I need to make some changes. I’d like to create more margins to work on Ze Book (and for that, I also need some time to let a few things percolate). While thankful – truly – for the jobs both Jeff and I have, I still find myself straining like a dog at the end of his leash with the inflexibility of the “9-to-5” aspect of it at times. And then there’s the house and the yard and all the myriad of things that can crop up over any given day or week or month, and … yeah.
I need some quiet, y’all. And some peace even as life hums and thrums around me so that I know what to keep, what to let fall by the wayside.
Any which way, as I mutter and sift, I hope you have a happy Friday. Let these two songs from Matt Maher give you a hand - I know I will: