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We’re nearing the halfway to the halfway point for 2019, and I’m somewhat underwhelmed by what I’ve accomplished so far. It’s not a case of where I’ve accomplished zilch. But there are some things where I am dragging my feet quite effectively on the whole (I’m looking at you, spring cleaning and writing). Then there are the areas where I’m good for a brief spurt, lose momentum, and have coax myself back up to speed. Add in the fact spiritually-speaking I seem to be in a time of pruning, and it makes for a heady mix of potential Doom Spirals. (Note the use of ‘potential’ in reference to Doom Spirals, which is a plus I must note.)
Rather than try to numb out/avoid these topsy-turvy kinds of things (I tend to do that – surprise!), I’m trying to sit with them for a bit. I need to take the time to sort out what I can change from what I need to make peace with, and then figure out how to start moving on from where I’m currently at to get to where I want to end up. I’m barely into it, and already I think it’s taking too long.
But then God leans close, and reminds me of some things I’ve heard before—more than a few times—but with enough of a tweak, a different point of emphasis to catch my attention. He recently did so through a verse found in the Gospel of Luke in The Message where Jesus is talking to His disciples:
“Isn’t it obvious? The place where your treasure is, is the place you will most want to be, and end up being.” –Luke 12:34
It caught my ear when I read it early this week, and has been catching my thoughts and my heart since then. I’m looking at the recent days and weeks, paying attention to where I’m ending up. And I’m asking again where do I most want to be—truly. It’s clear I’m not treasuring All The Right Things. So what and how to change? What first step or steps to take to get to where I want to be, ought to be?
Just a few simple questions, right?
Yet I do want to figure it out, not be scared to make mistakes and missteps because I have a hunch the end point will be worth it. (Yes, even when it comes to the seemingly mundane things like spring cleaning …)