Discoveries & Remedies
I first heard of the Enneagram a few years ago via the RELEVANT Podcast. Former regular cast member Shauna Niequist was speaking about it with RELEVANT Magazine founder (and podcast host) Cameron Strang, and both agreed it had not only helped them better understand some of the 'whys' behind their own actions, but it also helped them better relate to an interact with those around them. Jeff and I even purchased one of the books Shauna recommended to learn about this personality profiling system. Buuuut we haven't read it. Later, I ordered another book on the Enneagram, and that, too, sat with only a cursory flip-through.
And then ... then I learned my niece and her husband had been reading the 2nd of the books Jeff and I had collecting dust, and that her mom (my younger sister) had take a test and off they went, telling me how much of it they found applied to their lives, their relationships, as my nephew was looking into it in the backseat of the SUV. So that evening, I took the test - not for the first time. And, again, I found I was a 9 on the Enneagram scale - a peacemaker. I went over the bare-bones results with my mom the next day, and the amount of humour-filled side-eye I was getting from her confirmed I had been pegged correctly. So that has been an interesting thing to be tooling around with as of late.
I've also needed some reminders, reminders of the bigness and the kindness of God, of His care for me. I've been feeling anxious about an upcoming trip - a vacation of all things. Seems weird and silly, right? It did to me. I mean, come on - what was my problem? So it seemed I had best not bother God with it. But the more I tried to be all "it's fine, I'm fine", the more I felt simultaneously knotted up and ready to fall apart inside. I was well on my way to becoming someone who would be the least amount of fun to vacation with.
God, at least, was patient with me. (I wasn't, for the record.) He nudged me toward some familiar Scriptures I had lost sight of (namely Philippians 4:6-7) via a devotional from one of my favourite authors. He then reminded me of some good songs and the joy to be found in singing along to them. And when my prayers seemed to have all the lift of a deflated balloon, I was reminded of some wonderful people in my life who would be true to their word and pray for me, with me.
The horizon is clearing, this heart is settling, and this soul is ready to see what is ahead on this next stretch of road, thankful that no matter what is ahead, it's not walked alone.
P.S. There will be no new post until February 20th. So till then, here's one of the songs one may witness me singing along to when I'm driving by myself. ;-)