Of Starts and Finishes
Starting? Starting I have no problem with. For instance, I will gleefully jump into the #STARTexperiment – twice! Story ideas and goals and plans will be jotted down lickety-split. And stuff will be pulled out of rooms so I’m forced to properly go through things! I’ll even take a stab at making myself accountable to people through various proclamations here on this blog, via writers groups on Facebook, and by talking to family and friends about what I have on the go.
Then I get going. And it gets to be tedious/hard/more than or not quite what I expected. Experiments are left undone; some stories are finished while others are left with loose threads hanging indefinitely; new piles of stuff are walked/worked around for months. And eventually people quit asking how things are going as I quit filing progress reports.
It makes me think of the apostle Paul and his exclamations of the wretched man he was in light of all he did wrong in spite of his desire to do what was good and right. But Paul didn’t stay there – he went on to remember what Jesus had done for him, for all of us. The Message expresses it well:
I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question? The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions where I want to serve God with all my heart and mind, but am pulled by the influence of sin to do something totally different. . . . Those who enter into Christ’s being-here-for-us no longer have to live under a continuous, low-lying black cloud. - Romans 7:24-8:1b
And that’s it, isn’t it? I’ve got to, once again, let go of my guilt and disappointment in myself and start fresh today. I can’t judge my chances for success based on what I have (and have not) done in the past – I’m to look at what Christ has already done and to walk that path.
So here’s to another start – but this time with reminder I have oodles of help when it comes to reaching the finish line.
And here is a little diddy for today's travels:
*Photo Credit: Alexander Boden ©2010 (Flickr via Creative Commons)