Some Reflection and Some Mapping
How were your holidays? I hope they were good, even as I reflect on losses felt more keenly—and all to recently—by those within my circle of people. These times when we celebrate love and family and togetherness can be such a mixed bag of happy and sad, can’t they? I hope you had the space to feel both, to see hope even when things are not looking particularly merry or bright.
Jeff and I had a brighter and lighter holiday season this year. None of our nears-and-dears were in the hospital this year, and we do thank the good Lord for that. Even as the family branches out, we were all still able to gather together at various abodes to have some fun, good conversations, delicious food, and simply enjoy being together. And as an added bonus we had a sparkling white Christmas.
And now my 45th birthday has arrived. I know—I’m but a babe (as in I’m young, not, you know, “smoking hot” or some such thing that already feels awkward to be discussing, so I’ll stop). Maybe one day I’ll feel “old enough” to be my age. Not that I want to be all creaky and the like … It’s more a suspicion I should have more maturity, gravitas, or some other such nebulous thing as each birthday approaches. I don’t know—any time I try to sort it out on the page, I start sounding rather pompous. So maybe I should stop reaching for whatever unquantifiable standard I’m aiming for, and take each day and birthday as it comes with grace and thankfulness.
2016 was the year I aimed for ‘present over perfect’. I’m still getting there—it’s likely it will be a life-long process. But I’m closer. And building upon that, for 2017 I have as my One Word 365 this: Simply. To let my ‘yes’ be ‘yes’, and my ‘no’ a ‘no’; to clear out the clutter and make space for the people and things that matter along with the unexpected and unforeseen. I’m a bit nervous about having that as my central goal/theme for the year. It has a tension, a balance – at least in my way of looking at it for the upcoming year in particular – between knowing when to work and when to rest. Because I too often say ‘yes’ to things and then not follow through on them, or say ‘no’ to things I really just need to get going on already. I want to simplify in some areas, but I also do not want to use it as an excuse to be lazy and beg off on work needing to be done for a time or a season. All that to say I think this is going to be a good challenge for me.
This is likely my last post for 2016. As such, I’d like to thank you for taking time out of your day to read my ramblings and wanderings this year. I do appreciate it. All the best to you and yours as we prepare to ring in 2017!