There are a few things I wish were different in my life right now:
- I wish my husband and I were already parents
- I wish I didn’t procrastinate
- I wish I had more items checked off my “to do” list
- I wish I had frittered away less time over the past however many years
- I wish I was in better physical shape
- I wish I was a more faithful follower of Jesus
But no amount of wishing is going to enable me to go back in time to make the necessary changes then so I can have the life I wish for now. This isn’t Twice in a Lifetime, after all. And even as I know, deep down, that God knows my end from my beginning and as such is not surprised to find me where I’m currently at, I still have regrets about “could have beens” – real and imagined.
It’s a tiring way to live, to be honest. For one thing, I only end up perpetuating the cycle I’m currently in. How can I move on from where I am today if I keep wishing for things to have been different in a past I cannot change? I think I also end up limiting God – how can He turn my muck-ups into something good if I won’t let them go? It’s like I have a hole in my favourite pair of shoes, yet I refuse to let them go so they can be fixed and worn once more, or tossed and replaced with a new pair.
So today I remind myself again that the past is past. All I can do is move on from where I am now, to lay a hold of what God has given for me today and to make the best use I can of the time, talents, and life He has given to me. In other words (a paraphrase of Theodore Roosevelt’s, to be exact), I need to do what I can, with what I have, where I am.
What do you do when feeling bogged down with regrets about your past? Or do you not have any of those little goobers raising their whiny voices in your life?
^Photo Credit: Robert Couse-Baker ©2011 (Flickr via Creative Commons)